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500 Days of Lost Love in Los Angeles

So tonight i went and saw (500) Days of Summer with Charlie and Christina.  Let me just say, I am such a Tom Hansen it’s spooky.  And yes, you’re the Summer Finley.  The entire movie tugged on my heartstrings thanks to every feeling I’ve ever had about you being canvased across a movie theater screen.  One scene in particular, when Tom is at a party of Summer’s hoping for reconciliation but learning that she’s married made me almost lose it in the dark of the theater.  Luckily for me it’s really windy out here as of late and my eyes are incredibly dry, or else chances are I’d still have a crying induced headache and possibly the sniffles.

Do yourself a favor and see (500) Days of Summer.  It was incredibly acted and felt authentic the entire time.  There’s a scene in the film that addresses bullshit, and I’ve got to hand it Marc Webb and the writers Weber & Neustadter for writing a refreshing and honest inquisition into a post-modern love story-love story.

One question, is it possible to have a Summer and an Autumn together?  At least out here in Vegas it seems it could be…it’s usually pretty warm through October. <3

Tom & Summer in one of my favorite places in LA, Angels Knoll (Olive & 3rd St. behind the Cal Plaza).

If there were one specific thing I’d have to say I absolutely love about this movie I’d have to surprise you and say it has nothing to do with the story or the acting – it has to do with Los Angeles.  I think this movie beautifully captures the feeling that only a person from LA could have about LA.  Almost the entire film is shot in Downtown LA, which makes it even more remarkable.  From Tom’s loft in the Canadian Building, to his favorite view of the historic core from Angels Knoll; even the Redwood Bar and Bradbury Building make cameos.  After watching (500) Days… for about 30 minutes you begin to realize that although the film centers not around a love story but a story about love – it can still at times feel like a love story – about Los Angeles.

Just More Fun

Tuesdays at Lavo

Aaron and I are starting to make Tuesday nights at LAVO inside the Palazzo a tradition. Last night I finally broke through my fear of dancing and surprise surprise I’m actually pretty good. All the months of watching Kelsey seizure on the dance floor must have helped, because Aaron and I were the best “L.A. dancers” that there were. Open bars, ball players pouring Grey Goose in my mouth, dancing the night away with Aaron, VIP… I could get used to this.

We might be starting a new trend, over at Tao Beach on Sundays. If you want to come with us, feel free. We are getting a couple cabanas. I can’t friggin wait.

It’s Almost Jo Time.

The Jonas Brothers are coming! The Jonas Brothers are coming! Hehe, less than two weeks until Melanie and I act like we’re 13 years old.

I very excite!

Of Late, Times Are Good

I had a great 22nd birthday weekend.  I gave the actual day to MJ’s memorial, but the weekend was mine.  Ha ha!

Charlie, Brit and myself at Frankie’s Tiki Room.  These ladies are my favorites.

As if my weekend wasn’t cool enough, today Anita came over and we baked a cake, played some music, lol’ed some kittehs and ran a few errands.  Oh yeah, we also had an amazing time together and experienced an epic Photo Booth sesh.  Dig:

Yeah, we have that much fun.

Anita makes me feel like a little kid again.  I forget about responsibilities and troublesome thoughts and then all of a sudden I’m giddy and excitable, nervous and grateful that I’m here.  People like Anita make the world a better place for us all. Oh, Sunshine.

Jonas Brothers, Melanie & A Future Loss of Voice

Judge me all you want; at this point I just don’t care.

My most amazing crush/friend Melanie asked me (via Twitter) if I was going with her to the Jonas Brothers concert on August first.

I said (to paraphrase) I couldn’t because I’m broke (saving reserves in case my No Doubt/Kings of Leon connect falls through – I won’t have another Wilco on my hands).

She twittered back “I didn’t ask if you could afford it.”

Goddang I love this girl.  The only other person who can understand and appreciate my love of the Jonai.  Oh man, I can’t wait to mousse up the jewfro and mack on some choice tween prey. (jk).

August 1st. Mandalay Bay Events Center (Uh oh – I’ve made it a point to avoid that venue since June 8th, 2006 – for personal “get over it” reasons).

I CANT WAIT.

You’re Gonna Wake Up In a City that Never Sleeps

Have fun and be safe in New York City, Anita.  I miss you already!

Two New Pieces of “Art.”

Here are two of my first exports from my new foray into Adobe Illustrator CS4.  The first is based on a still of Clara Bow from “Call Her Savage” and the second is a take on a Marc Philbert photograph.

I believe the Clara Bow one will be used a a poster pretty soon.  It prints very nicely.

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This Ends Up Here, Forever.

“03/05/2007

II: Kacey Cash a.k.a. Panda Bear (1:46am)

RAWR…MY PANDA BEAR!!!

It’s exactly 12:12am and I can’t sleep, so I decided to write back to you!  It’s strange how I miss you so much and we’re in the same house.  I wish I could just lay by your side and be your bubs pillow more than anything right now and I’m fighting every urge to just let you sleep.  I really want to see you :[ but I suppose I'll have to wait a few more hours.  I sure hope your mom doesn't mind me using her paper, but I just felt like writing.  I have a feeling it's going to be pretty long...I'm sure you won't mind though!  I re-read your letter and I swear it just make me fall in love with you a little bit more every time I do!  You make my heart beat so fast when ever I'm in your presence or just thinking (aww sad day it didn't tear properly...) about your eyes, your smile, your laugh, your humourousness [sic], and just your crazy self.  I’m beyond extatic [sic] that I was able to see you this weekend.  It broke my heart when you said you couldn’t come.  I would do anyting just to be with you for the tiniest of seconds no matter what the consequences may be.  Although it’s nieve [sic] and stupid to be that careless, I just don’t care.  Love makes you do the dumbest and most unrealistic of things, but you are worth every bit of it.  I loved listening to you talk all night, last night.  Just to see you and know that you’re happy and I am a part of that reason you’re so happy is the best gift that you could ever give me.  Honest to goodness I absolutely love and appreciate the priceless gifts (letters:]) more than anything else you could possibly ever give me.

……AHH…OMG…YOUR MOM just scared the crap out of me!!! I thought she was going to come downstairs right now and “shank” me (as you would say, of course).  Creeeeeepy ISH!!! Anyway…back to me letter and into all the juicy detailed questions you asked me to respond to…Honest to God I never thought I would ever feel this way for another.  All I want to do is give you everything I can, in any way imaginable & possible.  I would die for you just so you wouldn’t feel one ounce of sorrow in your beautiful heart!  I would kill anyone who hurt you…It would be returned in the same way it was given, yet 100,000,000 x worse.  It’s so hard to show you how much your love & just YOU mean to me!  Not being able to see you has me in complete utter missery [sic] (my bad} lol…  All I want is for things to go your way just once without some new obsticle [sic] in our way.  Although i think by now we should be able to overcome anything life has to throw us.  The challenge is what makes it so much greater and worth wild [sic].  You are the most gorgeous person that I know inside & out.  You turn me on like no other can.  I was a complete fool for hurting you the way I did.  I know I will never completely understand what you were going through, but i do have an idea.  I was a complete mess when you have your thing with K.  I understand it’s not the same, but it killed me just the same.  I know I’ll never know how much she meant to you and I probably shouldn’t ask this but I feel like I need to know just how much she meant to you.  Did it feel like there was more there between you two than us at any point?  I think about this often and am too afraid to ask…  Did you honestly feel more for her at all than you did for me?  I think I kind of sorta just restated the same question, but whatevas…

I’m so self conscious when it comes to the mind aspect of our relationship.  I feel like I beat my brains out sometimes just trying so hard to be some what on the same level as you.  You’re so intelligent & naturally talented & beautiful.  I am just drawn to how intellectual you are.  You inspire me to be more than just average.  I want to explore new things & broaden my thought & views/vocab. just EVERYTHING!!!  You are my soul guiding inspiration to do more & be a better person not only for myself but for you and anyone in my life.  I know I haven’t completely made the change for the better just yet but I am getting there.  It makes me proud of myself to do things on my own like you.  In a way i guess you could say I look up to you.  You have been through so much & still are yet you manage to put others before yourself.  I never realized how much we were alike until that fight we had.  I love fighting with you actually.  They seem very much like horrible blessings hahaha…  I can’t begin to describe this feeling!  I wish there was a better way to describe out utopia CHAOTIC UTOPIA!!!  It’s stressful, but perfect in my eyes.  We learn so much every day!  I have never felt so lucky to have met you than I do now.  You are it for me.  My heart is yours along with my body & soul!  I only wish I could give more to you for all that you have done, given & shown me!  You are perfect for me…no matter how much we may not match.  You are the best thing in my life and I will never left you go EVER again!!!!!!!  You mean everything to me and I can’t function properly without my other half.  You are everything I am not & hope to be in some way, some day!

WOW…it’s 1:21…  I should probably try to get to sleep, that way the morning light will come faster & I can see your angelic face!   I hope you have a great day at work today.  You can expect an email/IM/QUACK! while you work.  I hope you enjoy your letter <3 :]  Perhaps you could w/b…ttyl…luv ya…Byeeeeee!!!!

<3 You

B****y B**s

P.S. – I LOVE YOU

(You and I are meant to be forever!)”

I wish midnight notes on yellow legal pads counted as contracts.