Oh God, She’s Online Right Now

Ever since I got sick of my old screen name and switched to “i movewithyou” I’ve seen people popping up on my list that blocked me on the old one.  Of course the only two people to have blocked me were Lisen and Brittany.  Well I saw Lisen online earlier – it’s so sad that she can’t get over whatever it is that bothers her so much and just be cool with the past.  But OMG, Brittany is online and I have this open iChat window…sitting on my desktop…waiting for something worth saying to her to come to mind.  I have a feeling I’m not going to be typing anything – but Geez, if the adrenaline rush isn’t something.

What I Can’t Say To You

I wake up everyday wondering what you’ll wear today.

I check your Myspace to see if your default picture and/or mood & status has changed.

I think about you in nearly every situation my day brings me to.

I know I messed up.

I’ve done and said a lot of things I regret and wish I could take back.

I’m not the same person you knew in a lot of ways, but I am familiar in my design.

It’s true that you don’t know what you’ve got until it’s gone – although I always knew you were something special.

A lot of what happened between us was the product of my behavior, which was a byproduct of a lot of bad stuff happening at once, but it’s my fault I made the decisions I did.

I want you back in my life.  I would take you as a friend, a fair stranger or – in a perfect world – the sunshine of my life.

I don’t want anybody but you.  I’ve tried and it doesn’t work.

I know how much I love you, yet everyday I am surprised that I still feel as strongly as yesterday.

I have never stuck with something this long in my entire life.

I have never wanted to see a failure through as much as I do now.

I would never make the same mistakes again.

Every entry in this blog is written with you in mind, because every time I log in I think about that one time you left me a comment – and then I have to wonder if you still check this from time to time.

If you don’t but are now, please click the “317″ tag.  You have a lot of catching up to do.

I will never stop loving you.

I am so, so sorry Brittany.  I hope one day I can make it all up to you.  In any way.  In any shape.

The Freest Man

“The days start to fade out of the frame,
like they’re blurring into to someone else’s name.”

Hey Girl Hayyy

Have you ever seen Disney’s “Brother Bear”?  It’s so aesthetically pleasing.  I love Disney animation from the hey days of my youth (c. The Little Mermaid).  Why don’t they do animation anymore?  I always kind of thought it was because of Pixar.  Pixar I could do without (with the exemption of “Wall-E” which is AMAZ-ING).  Now I want to re-watch Wall-E.  Maybe I will, because Brother Bear made me hecka sad… reminds me of a girl that used to talk about it a lot.  Cue really cute memories and… Action!

Collect Call

If the fire’s out baby

How you gonna keep me warm

Supposing you let me

With the door wide open no one can leave

I know it’s a lie

I want it to be true

The rest of the ride is riding on you

Over goodbyes we’ll buy some place

For wishing you could

Keep me closer

I’m a lazy dancer

When you move I move with you

If somebody’s got soul

You gotta make them move

Make them move

I know it’s a lie

I want it to be true

The rest of the ride is riding on you

Over goodbyes we’ll buy some place

For wishing you could

Keep me closer

I’m a lazy dancer

When you move I move with you